The woes echo in my mind and haunt my heart. I don’t want them to belong to me. I would avoid them completely except that Jesus spoke them and I have read them.
Today, the incongruity of what I express and who I really am slams into Jesus’ words. I interpret; Woe to you who look good on the outside while your insides are full of chaos and death.
I shudder, aware of the lingering darkness hidden within my heart.
Here is a truth; I want to hide from this word. I want to apply it to someone else, but it won’t let me. So I pray; Jesus, what do you want me to know? And I trust him to show me.
With Jesus, I consider the word again. I weigh it in my hands and realize both what it means and what it doesn’t mean.
Not woe to me because God is ready to destroy me for my incongruity, my falsehoods and my failures. Rather woe because, in my incongruity, I experience grief, sorrow and distress. I am not whole. Instead, I am a dank basement full of memories and spiders. I am a locked closet full of clothes that no longer fit and perhaps never did. I am pictures on the wall photographed through the warped lenses of others cameras.
I survey the filth and remember that Jesus longs to give me a rich, full, fruitful life. He is healer and I am fragmented. He is cleaner and I am full of filth. He brings wholeness; the restoration of the earth, the human community and the fractured children he loves.
His word no longer stings. Now, I hear his invitation; Invite me into your darkness; the chaos and fear you struggle to keep under lock and key. Trust me. If I can enter Earth’s dark tomb and bring life, surely, I can enter the hidden places of your soul and bring healing and wholeness. I can take away your woe.
And now, in the safety of his love I welcome his word. I embrace the truth he shows me. Yes. I have experienced woe; sorrow, grief and distress. And you, the Jesus who speaks these words to me, invite me to wholeness. Together, we explore the dark and hidden places of my heart, and day by day, my life is transformed.
Can you relate?